I mean...if I'm being honest, that is kind of part of it? I can't help that I feel bad, though. I mean, it'd be pretty ungrateful of me if I didn't feel like that at ALL, right?
But it's not the only reason, is what I'm saying. I want to do it for myself, too. And...maybe you'll rest a little easier if you know for sure that I wanted to?
i think i can understand what you're saying so long as it's something you actually want, you know? i'm never gonna think you're ungrateful and i'm not very good at this kind of thing so all i'm saying is just don't force yourself, okay?
I don't let people force me to do things. And I wouldn't treat something like this carelessly, believe me.
Haha, if it makes you feel better, I can tell you about my first kiss? It was really terrible! I guess some people have really romantic memories of their first but mine was just kind of gross, honestly.
But — you don't have to think of it like that if you don't want! It doesn't count if it was to save someone's life, I'm sure of it! I'm definitely positive that's in the rules somewhere!
what? no! i don't mean that i don't want to think about it like that it's kind of like what you were saying people have good or romantic memories about them i mean i just kinda wish it had been better for you? does that make sense fuck, i'm sorry, i don't want you to think i didn't like it because really what's more romantic than that, right?
yeah! see, that's what i mean! i meant it before when i said i wouldn't take it back and if you really wanna do it again then i really do too? i really just didn't want it to be weird...
I don't think it's weird. In fact, I think doing it again will probably be just the opposite. Right? Because then we both wanted to and did it on our own, so it's fine. Isn't it?
Oh, no, it was years ago and back home. The first guy I ever kissed, he stuck his tongue in my mouth without asking. Super gross, right? Haha, Abbacchio says I should've bitten it off, but I was mostly too startled to do anything about it.
I was mad for a little while about it. Because it was my first, you know? But then after a while I realized that it wasn't as big of a deal as I'd been making it out to be, and it was okay.
...What I mean is, I didn't stop being mad about the tongue part! Just about the "it happened during my first kiss" part. I stopped feeling cheated, I guess you could say.
you know i think i'm with abbacchio on that one you probably should have but i can't say i blame you for being too shocked
but now you've got time to make better memories, yeah? none of us can take back what happened before but we can always make the best out of it that probably sounds really cheesy though
I don't think it sounds cheesy at all. It's pretty much exactly what I've been trying to do since I got here. Not FORGET the past, but just...not get stuck in it, either.
It's pretty hard sometimes. But I think every day I get a little better, you know?
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But it's not the only reason, is what I'm saying. I want to do it for myself, too. And...maybe you'll rest a little easier if you know for sure that I wanted to?
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so long as it's something you actually want, you know?
i'm never gonna think you're ungrateful
and i'm not very good at this kind of thing
so all i'm saying is just don't force yourself, okay?
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Haha, if it makes you feel better, I can tell you about my first kiss? It was really terrible! I guess some people have really romantic memories of their first but mine was just kind of gross, honestly.
here you go reimi time to give it up
i mean if you wanna talk about it
i guess it's only fair since...
uhh, well you already know about mine now...?
OHHHHHH HERE IT GOES
wait
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sorry
does that make it weird
it makes it weird, doesn't it?
is it too late to go back and delete it?
maybe pretend like i never said anything?
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But — you don't have to think of it like that if you don't want! It doesn't count if it was to save someone's life, I'm sure of it! I'm definitely positive that's in the rules somewhere!
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i don't mean that i don't want to think about it like that
it's kind of like what you were saying
people have good or romantic memories about them
i mean
i just kinda wish it had been better for you?
does that make sense
fuck, i'm sorry, i don't want you to think i didn't like it
because really what's more romantic than that, right?
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I mean, I guess that does sound like something straight out of a movie...
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i meant it before when i said i wouldn't take it back
and if you really wanna do it again
then i really do too?
i really just didn't want it to be weird...
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i won't apologise next time at least
and i'll try not to say fuck
but now i gotta ask
who gave you a bad kiss?
it's not anyone i know, right?
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I was mad for a little while about it. Because it was my first, you know? But then after a while I realized that it wasn't as big of a deal as I'd been making it out to be, and it was okay.
...What I mean is, I didn't stop being mad about the tongue part! Just about the "it happened during my first kiss" part. I stopped feeling cheated, I guess you could say.
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you probably should have but i can't say i blame you for being too shocked
but now you've got time to make better memories, yeah?
none of us can take back what happened before
but we can always make the best out of it
that probably sounds really cheesy though
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It's pretty hard sometimes. But I think every day I get a little better, you know?
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just gotta make sure you give yourself the credit for it
i think you're doing pretty damn good
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Hey, and for what it's worth?
I wouldn't have known that it was your first, if you hadn't said something. You were pretty good at it. ;)
[HE REALLY WASN'T BUT YOU KNOW WHAT. THAT'S NOT IMPORTANT RIGHT NOW.]
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seriously??
it wasn’t bad??
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i really thought i messed it up