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[ He leaned in to look in the little kitchen, hand on his chin thoughtfully as he considered that himself. ]
If we got a little table we can replace some of the other stuff in the kitchen and it can just be a dining room? Do you think there's a way to make the little fridge actually work? They'd probably like it if they could get to their own snacks sometimes, get some plates...
[ Yeah, he's really thinking about this too hard. ]
It's not just me that's happy, though, they're gonna lose it when I let them out! Keep this up and they're gonna start liking you more than me!
[ He was flushed this whole time, but it wasn't as noticeable since his head was practically shoved into the dollhouse. This was an incredibly thoughtful gift. ]
If we got a little table we can replace some of the other stuff in the kitchen and it can just be a dining room? Do you think there's a way to make the little fridge actually work? They'd probably like it if they could get to their own snacks sometimes, get some plates...
[ Yeah, he's really thinking about this too hard. ]
It's not just me that's happy, though, they're gonna lose it when I let them out! Keep this up and they're gonna start liking you more than me!
[ He was flushed this whole time, but it wasn't as noticeable since his head was practically shoved into the dollhouse. This was an incredibly thoughtful gift. ]
[ What a cute guy. Josuke really feels so proud of this idea he had. One of his better ideas in a long time ... ]
Plates and a table is doable, but we really gotta find a tech guy if we want to wire up a tiny fridge. Don't think anyone's got a stand that could help with that ...
[ A stand that shrinks stuff? But then they'd have to fork out all that money buying a real fridge. Still, it's a cute idea. ]
So, you think you're gonna let them out? [ He wants to see the little pistols running around in their new house. It sounds cute as heck. Of course, there's no way they'd end up liking him more than their own user. ]
Plates and a table is doable, but we really gotta find a tech guy if we want to wire up a tiny fridge. Don't think anyone's got a stand that could help with that ...
[ A stand that shrinks stuff? But then they'd have to fork out all that money buying a real fridge. Still, it's a cute idea. ]
So, you think you're gonna let them out? [ He wants to see the little pistols running around in their new house. It sounds cute as heck. Of course, there's no way they'd end up liking him more than their own user. ]
Oh yeah, I guess you would need to have someone make the fridge.
[ There was a click of his tongue as he pulled back, arms crossing over his chest. ]
Eh, I mean, they can just deal with it the way we always do but I still want to get them some little plates. They don't need any flatware or anything because they eat with their hands...
[ He was almost a little too deep in thought, looking up at Josuke after a moment before chuckling awkwardly and bringing his own hand up to the back of his head. ]
Shit, yeah, I got so excited I didn't even think about letting them out! Guys, check it out, Josuke brought you something really fucking cool!
[ That announcement for them as he swung out the cylinder of his gun to let them crawl out and run wild in their little house. ]
You'd better say thanks too, he didn't have to do it...
[ There was a click of his tongue as he pulled back, arms crossing over his chest. ]
Eh, I mean, they can just deal with it the way we always do but I still want to get them some little plates. They don't need any flatware or anything because they eat with their hands...
[ He was almost a little too deep in thought, looking up at Josuke after a moment before chuckling awkwardly and bringing his own hand up to the back of his head. ]
Shit, yeah, I got so excited I didn't even think about letting them out! Guys, check it out, Josuke brought you something really fucking cool!
[ That announcement for them as he swung out the cylinder of his gun to let them crawl out and run wild in their little house. ]
You'd better say thanks too, he didn't have to do it...
Yeah, if it's not a problem, I mean.
[ He finally pulled back, taking in a deep breath as he prepared himself to look Abbacchio in the face again. He will not cry, he will not be overcome by another wave of emotion. ]
I'll probably pass out before I get sick of you, though, I just don't really wanna be alone I guess? It probably makes me sound like a stupid baby but whatever...
[ He finally pulled back, taking in a deep breath as he prepared himself to look Abbacchio in the face again. He will not cry, he will not be overcome by another wave of emotion. ]
I'll probably pass out before I get sick of you, though, I just don't really wanna be alone I guess? It probably makes me sound like a stupid baby but whatever...
[ The store he was at did sell tiny little dollhouse furniture and accessories, so they probably did have plates. Josuke makes a note to himself to go back there. Anyway, before that, it's time to enjoy the spoils of his efforts. Josuke moves closer to the dollhouse, watching with pride as the little pistols start exploring their new home. ]
Holy shit, this is cute -- Looks like they like it! But they're such a handful, huh? [ They're pretty much everywhere right now. It's a wonder how Mista keeps them in line. Josuke takes out his phone and starts capturing the moment on video. It's just really cute? ] We should probably get more beds though, I don't want 'em to start fighting.
Holy shit, this is cute -- Looks like they like it! But they're such a handful, huh? [ They're pretty much everywhere right now. It's a wonder how Mista keeps them in line. Josuke takes out his phone and starts capturing the moment on video. It's just really cute? ] We should probably get more beds though, I don't want 'em to start fighting.
you don’t have to worry about that
it’s nearly impossible to get me to do something i don’t want to
i think germany knows better than anyone when he tried to get me to seriously work out for over 50 years
now i have to do it twice a day sometimes...
anyway, we should definitely meet up
if you come to the park in fifteen minutes i should have things set up
it’s nearly impossible to get me to do something i don’t want to
i think germany knows better than anyone when he tried to get me to seriously work out for over 50 years
now i have to do it twice a day sometimes...
anyway, we should definitely meet up
if you come to the park in fifteen minutes i should have things set up
Hey, Mista...?
Um. I...listen, I feel really selfish doing this, so I hope you're okay right now, and if you're not okay, just ignore this, okay? It's really fine. I don't want to bother you if you're having a bad time of it.
It's just that...I think it's Cordis, maybe, or maybe it's something else, but I'm feeling...kind of brave, all of a sudden, and I don't know how long it'll last, but before that feeling goes away —
Just. Can I tell you a secret? About me?
Um. I...listen, I feel really selfish doing this, so I hope you're okay right now, and if you're not okay, just ignore this, okay? It's really fine. I don't want to bother you if you're having a bad time of it.
It's just that...I think it's Cordis, maybe, or maybe it's something else, but I'm feeling...kind of brave, all of a sudden, and I don't know how long it'll last, but before that feeling goes away —
Just. Can I tell you a secret? About me?
Let me, um. Let me try it in text, and then you can call. Or we can keep texting, I'll...leave it up to you.
What I wanted to say is...
Just, if something were to happen to me, and I were to disappear from here, I don't want you to worry about me, okay? Because...I know what I'm going back to. Where I'm going. And it's not bad. I know where I'm going and what's going to happen, and I'm okay with it.
Nothing bad is going to happen to me. The worst thing that could have happened to me back there...it already did happen, a long time ago, and it's how I became a ghost.
So there's no reason to worry.
I just...I didn't want you to be left wondering whether you should have to worry.
What I wanted to say is...
Just, if something were to happen to me, and I were to disappear from here, I don't want you to worry about me, okay? Because...I know what I'm going back to. Where I'm going. And it's not bad. I know where I'm going and what's going to happen, and I'm okay with it.
Nothing bad is going to happen to me. The worst thing that could have happened to me back there...it already did happen, a long time ago, and it's how I became a ghost.
So there's no reason to worry.
I just...I didn't want you to be left wondering whether you should have to worry.
[ Oh. That’s a lot to unpack there. There’s a little bit before he finally responds. ]
it’s different if you know what you’re going back to
and if you accept it i’ll do my best not to worry
i can’t promise that i won’t be upset
and i might still worry a little
because that’s what you do when you care about people
and i mean i like you a lot
so like i said no promises
it’s different if you know what you’re going back to
and if you accept it i’ll do my best not to worry
i can’t promise that i won’t be upset
and i might still worry a little
because that’s what you do when you care about people
and i mean i like you a lot
so like i said no promises
Abbacchio told me I'm from two years before you guys. The time you remember, I mean. So I decided, I'm going to wait for him. And he's going to come find me, too. That's a pretty good plan, right...?
Anyway, the thing is...
It's just that, I don't want to make you sad, and that's why this is hard. But I like you a lot, too, and...I think, I think I would like it if you knew...what happened to me. What I was doing before I came here.
It doesn't have to be right now. I know this probably isn't a great time — it's probably terrible! But just, I trust you, so...so if you want to know, I'll tell you, I guess is what I mean. If you want to know that about me. There aren't many people who do.
Anyway, the thing is...
It's just that, I don't want to make you sad, and that's why this is hard. But I like you a lot, too, and...I think, I think I would like it if you knew...what happened to me. What I was doing before I came here.
It doesn't have to be right now. I know this probably isn't a great time — it's probably terrible! But just, I trust you, so...so if you want to know, I'll tell you, I guess is what I mean. If you want to know that about me. There aren't many people who do.
hey yeah that sounds like a really good plan
but you shouldn’t have to worry about me either
it really means a lot that you would trust me enough
to share something important so when i say anytime
i really do mean it
and i definitely want to know but it’s gotta be on your terms
whenever you’re ready to tell me, i’m ready to hear it
even if it’s like 5 minutes from now
okay?
but you shouldn’t have to worry about me either
it really means a lot that you would trust me enough
to share something important so when i say anytime
i really do mean it
and i definitely want to know but it’s gotta be on your terms
whenever you’re ready to tell me, i’m ready to hear it
even if it’s like 5 minutes from now
okay?
...thanks, I'll get you back someday, I swear.
[ Meant only in the best way, of course, lopsided smile on his face as he leaned against the bar. It was good to know that even if things felt awful right now, he didn't have to suffer through it alone.
At least not tonight. ]
[ Meant only in the best way, of course, lopsided smile on his face as he leaned against the bar. It was good to know that even if things felt awful right now, he didn't have to suffer through it alone.
At least not tonight. ]
Yeah...yeah, okay.
Then I think...I'm going to tell you now, so I don't lose my courage.
I know you know I'm a ghost, you've seen me turn spooky before and walk through walls and stuff. And...the reason why I'm a ghost is because when I was sixteen, a boy from my school broke into my house and killed my family, my dog, and me.
He saved me for last, because I was the one he really wanted. The only reason he killed my parents and Arnold is so that I'd be alone. So that...there wouldn't be anyone left to interrupt, or to help me. I was the one he was after.
Lately, when Cordis happens, I've been getting butterfly wings, and everybody says they suit me. But it's hard, and I don't really like them, because they come out of my back and that means I can't cover it up. And that's...where the scars are. From...
Just. I didn't...you know, die right away. It took him a while. So my back...it's really messed up.
Then I think...I'm going to tell you now, so I don't lose my courage.
I know you know I'm a ghost, you've seen me turn spooky before and walk through walls and stuff. And...the reason why I'm a ghost is because when I was sixteen, a boy from my school broke into my house and killed my family, my dog, and me.
He saved me for last, because I was the one he really wanted. The only reason he killed my parents and Arnold is so that I'd be alone. So that...there wouldn't be anyone left to interrupt, or to help me. I was the one he was after.
Lately, when Cordis happens, I've been getting butterfly wings, and everybody says they suit me. But it's hard, and I don't really like them, because they come out of my back and that means I can't cover it up. And that's...where the scars are. From...
Just. I didn't...you know, die right away. It took him a while. So my back...it's really messed up.
[ If he thought her previous messages had been a lot to unpack, he wasn’t even sure how to describe this. Impossible to unpack? The descriptor didn’t matter; what did matter was that for the first time since he’d been left alone in this flat, he was glad that he was alone.
There was no one around to see him, the expression on his face that conveyed nothing but silent rage as he read the message over again. Where to begin? ]
holy shit reimi
i’m so sorry
i really did know that something had happened but i didn’t think it would be something like that
i don’t think there’s anything i can say to make you feel better or actually reassure you
but think about it the same way you started with
you already know what happens and you said you’re fine with it
and i’m not saying it’ll be easy but maybe you need to try not worrying about it
it’s gonna sound stupid or cheesy or like i’m not taking this seriously but i promise i am
you aren’t your scars
you’re you and you’re pretty and smart
and generous
it seems a little stupid now that i typed it out but i’m not gonna take it back
[ there’s a long break before the next message ]
please tell me someone killed that fucker
because if they didn’t i’ll find a way to do it
There was no one around to see him, the expression on his face that conveyed nothing but silent rage as he read the message over again. Where to begin? ]
holy shit reimi
i’m so sorry
i really did know that something had happened but i didn’t think it would be something like that
i don’t think there’s anything i can say to make you feel better or actually reassure you
but think about it the same way you started with
you already know what happens and you said you’re fine with it
and i’m not saying it’ll be easy but maybe you need to try not worrying about it
it’s gonna sound stupid or cheesy or like i’m not taking this seriously but i promise i am
you aren’t your scars
you’re you and you’re pretty and smart
and generous
it seems a little stupid now that i typed it out but i’m not gonna take it back
[ there’s a long break before the next message ]
please tell me someone killed that fucker
because if they didn’t i’ll find a way to do it
You know...it's dumb, but one of the things that gives me a lot of courage is the way that Abbacchio wears open shirts even though he has that big scar. He's so brave about it, he doesn't care what anyone thinks and he doesn't let it stop him.
I think it'd be nice to be like that someday. To wear something with an open back just because I wanted to, not because of Cordis or anything. But I just...I just can't. I don't want to. It'll just upset people, and I don't want that.
Sometimes I think what bothers me most is that...it feels like when he killed me, he took away everything except that. I don't think anybody remembers me back home, except as Reimi the girl who was murdered. We're a pretty small town, and it was in all the papers. But that's one of the reasons why I don't always tell people. I'm not ashamed of being a ghost, or even of what happened. But I want to be more to people than just...that.
[She can guess exactly why he goes so quiet. She can guess all too well. And even though it's text, and there's no tone or inflection inherent in the text, there's still a definite change in mood between what she's said before and what she types next, separate from the last.]
I did it, Mista.
I heard him get dragged to hell where he belongs.
Right at the end, I took away the one thing he wanted most.
And I don't regret it, and I'd do it again.
I think it'd be nice to be like that someday. To wear something with an open back just because I wanted to, not because of Cordis or anything. But I just...I just can't. I don't want to. It'll just upset people, and I don't want that.
Sometimes I think what bothers me most is that...it feels like when he killed me, he took away everything except that. I don't think anybody remembers me back home, except as Reimi the girl who was murdered. We're a pretty small town, and it was in all the papers. But that's one of the reasons why I don't always tell people. I'm not ashamed of being a ghost, or even of what happened. But I want to be more to people than just...that.
[She can guess exactly why he goes so quiet. She can guess all too well. And even though it's text, and there's no tone or inflection inherent in the text, there's still a definite change in mood between what she's said before and what she types next, separate from the last.]
I did it, Mista.
I heard him get dragged to hell where he belongs.
Right at the end, I took away the one thing he wanted most.
And I don't regret it, and I'd do it again.
good, he got what he deserved then
if it's for the safety of yourself or even those you care about
you can't have regrets when it comes to things like that
you're stronger for it, i don't think i said it before when i listed things
but you're definitely strong
[ he wanted to address that first, another pause between messages before he went on ]
if you want the truth he was like that before he died too, at least from what i remember but i think he's a good guy for you to look up to
i hope you know that you're more than that to me
and the rest of us too, i'd be willing to bet
to me you're just reimi, which doesn't sound great when i put it that way
but it's really a good thing
you helped me out when i needed it, the pistols too
so you're way more than just another girl that died or a ghost story
have you thought about just trying to get comfortable with someone you know first?
i mean with something you wear and then i don't know branch out
you already know abbacchio's gotta deal with the same thing so you could wear something you want around him if it'd make you feel better
if you can make it hanging out a day with him, then try someone else
i'd offer but i don't want you to feel like i'm trying to push you or anything
what i'm saying is start small and then work your way up
and if some people can't accept you for you
then all you gotta do is point and i'll kick their ass, got it?
if it's for the safety of yourself or even those you care about
you can't have regrets when it comes to things like that
you're stronger for it, i don't think i said it before when i listed things
but you're definitely strong
[ he wanted to address that first, another pause between messages before he went on ]
if you want the truth he was like that before he died too, at least from what i remember but i think he's a good guy for you to look up to
i hope you know that you're more than that to me
and the rest of us too, i'd be willing to bet
to me you're just reimi, which doesn't sound great when i put it that way
but it's really a good thing
you helped me out when i needed it, the pistols too
so you're way more than just another girl that died or a ghost story
have you thought about just trying to get comfortable with someone you know first?
i mean with something you wear and then i don't know branch out
you already know abbacchio's gotta deal with the same thing so you could wear something you want around him if it'd make you feel better
if you can make it hanging out a day with him, then try someone else
i'd offer but i don't want you to feel like i'm trying to push you or anything
what i'm saying is start small and then work your way up
and if some people can't accept you for you
then all you gotta do is point and i'll kick their ass, got it?
I get worried sometimes, you know. Because he's dead and gone, but I'm dead too and I still wound up here. Abbacchio is dead and he remembers heaven and they still brought him here. So...it could still happen, I guess. That monster could still turn up here, someday. But this time I'm ready for him. He'll be sorry if he ever does show up. I hope he doesn't.
And...actually, I...
You wouldn't be pushing me.
If I do that, and...I think I want to, then you're the one I want to be with me. Is...is that okay?
And...actually, I...
You wouldn't be pushing me.
If I do that, and...I think I want to, then you're the one I want to be with me. Is...is that okay?
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