i'd do it again, no questions i'm pretty sure you know that though, yeah? you don't really have to say thank you you being around is good enough for me
You really are a nice guy, you know that? I told Abbacchio the same thing, and I know he thinks so too.
But anyway, I was thinking...
I'm sorry you were worried about me, and...you know, whether I was okay with, um, the things you did. To help me. So I thought...how about if I owe you one. One where you don't have to worry if I'm okay with it or not.
ah yeah it makes sense, he's a good guy he scares the shit out of me sometimes but he's a good guy and i still wouldn't take back what i did to make sure you were safe
Mm, I know what you mean. He's pretty tough, right?
[That is literally not anything even remotely close to what he means at all.]
Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is...I'd like to kiss you once, just because. Instead of because someone's in danger or something like that. That's what I meant by "I owe you one". Like an IOU! One kiss, if and when you want it. And no pressure or anything.
yeah that's kind of an understatement, but close enough
[ But focus, Mista, a girl just said she wanted to kiss you. That's new. That's really new. ]
are you sure about that, though? i don't want you to feel like you have to do anything in return i mean i'm definitely not saying that i don't want to kiss you because i do!
I mean...if I'm being honest, that is kind of part of it? I can't help that I feel bad, though. I mean, it'd be pretty ungrateful of me if I didn't feel like that at ALL, right?
But it's not the only reason, is what I'm saying. I want to do it for myself, too. And...maybe you'll rest a little easier if you know for sure that I wanted to?
i think i can understand what you're saying so long as it's something you actually want, you know? i'm never gonna think you're ungrateful and i'm not very good at this kind of thing so all i'm saying is just don't force yourself, okay?
I don't let people force me to do things. And I wouldn't treat something like this carelessly, believe me.
Haha, if it makes you feel better, I can tell you about my first kiss? It was really terrible! I guess some people have really romantic memories of their first but mine was just kind of gross, honestly.
But — you don't have to think of it like that if you don't want! It doesn't count if it was to save someone's life, I'm sure of it! I'm definitely positive that's in the rules somewhere!
what? no! i don't mean that i don't want to think about it like that it's kind of like what you were saying people have good or romantic memories about them i mean i just kinda wish it had been better for you? does that make sense fuck, i'm sorry, i don't want you to think i didn't like it because really what's more romantic than that, right?
yeah! see, that's what i mean! i meant it before when i said i wouldn't take it back and if you really wanna do it again then i really do too? i really just didn't want it to be weird...
I don't think it's weird. In fact, I think doing it again will probably be just the opposite. Right? Because then we both wanted to and did it on our own, so it's fine. Isn't it?
Oh, no, it was years ago and back home. The first guy I ever kissed, he stuck his tongue in my mouth without asking. Super gross, right? Haha, Abbacchio says I should've bitten it off, but I was mostly too startled to do anything about it.
I was mad for a little while about it. Because it was my first, you know? But then after a while I realized that it wasn't as big of a deal as I'd been making it out to be, and it was okay.
...What I mean is, I didn't stop being mad about the tongue part! Just about the "it happened during my first kiss" part. I stopped feeling cheated, I guess you could say.
you know i think i'm with abbacchio on that one you probably should have but i can't say i blame you for being too shocked
but now you've got time to make better memories, yeah? none of us can take back what happened before but we can always make the best out of it that probably sounds really cheesy though
I don't think it sounds cheesy at all. It's pretty much exactly what I've been trying to do since I got here. Not FORGET the past, but just...not get stuck in it, either.
It's pretty hard sometimes. But I think every day I get a little better, you know?
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you okay?
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I just...wanted to say thank you, again. For everything you did for me. I would've been pretty bad off without you, you know?
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i'm pretty sure you know that though, yeah?
you don't really have to say thank you
you being around is good enough for me
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But anyway, I was thinking...
I'm sorry you were worried about me, and...you know, whether I was okay with, um, the things you did. To help me. So I thought...how about if I owe you one. One where you don't have to worry if I'm okay with it or not.
1/2 he sweatin
wait i mean you want to ?
if you want to then i want to
but you really don't owe me anything
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you talked to abbacchio about it??
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it makes sense, he's a good guy
he scares the shit out of me sometimes
but he's a good guy
and i still wouldn't take back what i did to make sure you were safe
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[That is literally not anything even remotely close to what he means at all.]
Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is...I'd like to kiss you once, just because. Instead of because someone's in danger or something like that. That's what I meant by "I owe you one". Like an IOU! One kiss, if and when you want it. And no pressure or anything.
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[ But focus, Mista, a girl just said she wanted to kiss you. That's new. That's really new. ]
are you sure about that, though?
i don't want you to feel like you have to do anything in return
i mean i'm definitely not saying that i don't want to kiss you
because i do!
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But it's not the only reason, is what I'm saying. I want to do it for myself, too. And...maybe you'll rest a little easier if you know for sure that I wanted to?
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so long as it's something you actually want, you know?
i'm never gonna think you're ungrateful
and i'm not very good at this kind of thing
so all i'm saying is just don't force yourself, okay?
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Haha, if it makes you feel better, I can tell you about my first kiss? It was really terrible! I guess some people have really romantic memories of their first but mine was just kind of gross, honestly.
here you go reimi time to give it up
i mean if you wanna talk about it
i guess it's only fair since...
uhh, well you already know about mine now...?
OHHHHHH HERE IT GOES
wait
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sorry
does that make it weird
it makes it weird, doesn't it?
is it too late to go back and delete it?
maybe pretend like i never said anything?
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But — you don't have to think of it like that if you don't want! It doesn't count if it was to save someone's life, I'm sure of it! I'm definitely positive that's in the rules somewhere!
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i don't mean that i don't want to think about it like that
it's kind of like what you were saying
people have good or romantic memories about them
i mean
i just kinda wish it had been better for you?
does that make sense
fuck, i'm sorry, i don't want you to think i didn't like it
because really what's more romantic than that, right?
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I mean, I guess that does sound like something straight out of a movie...
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i meant it before when i said i wouldn't take it back
and if you really wanna do it again
then i really do too?
i really just didn't want it to be weird...
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i won't apologise next time at least
and i'll try not to say fuck
but now i gotta ask
who gave you a bad kiss?
it's not anyone i know, right?
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I was mad for a little while about it. Because it was my first, you know? But then after a while I realized that it wasn't as big of a deal as I'd been making it out to be, and it was okay.
...What I mean is, I didn't stop being mad about the tongue part! Just about the "it happened during my first kiss" part. I stopped feeling cheated, I guess you could say.
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you probably should have but i can't say i blame you for being too shocked
but now you've got time to make better memories, yeah?
none of us can take back what happened before
but we can always make the best out of it
that probably sounds really cheesy though
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It's pretty hard sometimes. But I think every day I get a little better, you know?
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